Such a small word with a huge meaning. But before I start talking about that I want to say that I have accepted Christ into my life! I have never felt better about a decision.
Life has been a roller coaster these past weeks. A lot of interesting things have happened. My life has changed so much in so little time.
My first day of college was a mess. I have a yoga class to start off my day at grcc at 7:45 AM. I woke up around 6:00 thinking I would have plenty of time to get myself ready and Easton. Was I right? Nope. I ended up gettig to class at 8:10 and my instructor was not happy. Not to mention having a class full of older women staring at you does not help at all. After the class was done I have time to study before my next class. And of course I got lost. I don't even know how I did. Every building on campus is right next to each other. To be honest I wanted to give up right there. I called my mom crying saying I couldn't do it! It was pretty overwhelming! There is tons of people. So different from high school. And it's not even a university so I couldn't imagine what some of my pals are going though! I give them props. But Tuesday seemed to go somewhat better. I have a general health class that I have to take for the LPN program and I absolutely love it! It is a really tough course, with a lot of studying and homework but I wouldn't trade it got anything! Plus my instructor is really nice and she is a RN, LPN so he has a lot of cool stories from the ER. Also her daughter is Ginger Zee, the meteorologist for Good Morning America! I already have my first test next Tuesday and I am really nervous but I am sure I will be fine. I also have an algebra class that I do not look forward to. It's two days a week two hours long :( gotta do what you gotta do!
Starting the 18th of this month I am taking a CNA (certified nursing assistant) class to get my certificate so I can get started in the health care field. I am really excited its three days a week 5:30-10 at night! It will be tough but very worth it.
I find myself missing Easton so much, it is hard being away from him. I am worried our relationship will be different because I don't see him as much. And I don't want him to forget I'm his mom or the bond we shared. I want him to j is I am doing this all for him so WE can have a good life in the future. That it won't be like this for long. I feel guilty knowing I don't have a full time job, a house, and a car that isn't broke down half the time. It is a struggle but with God by my side and in my heart anything is possible. With continued support from my Mom and Dad I can do this! Even if it takes a little bit. I never judge others or the choices they make because EVERYONE has a story. There is a reason for everything. I focus on the moment. What happened in the past is the past. There is no way to change it. And why worry about tomorrow? It hasn't come yet. I live in the moment. It's tough at times. But it's how I get through the days.
This scripture have been helping me with school, and being a mom.
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
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