first day of senior year

i had my first day of senior year today!&  it wasn't all that bad.

i went to bed at about 11:00 last night and couldn't fall asleep. i was pretty nervous. but eventually i managed to go to sleep. easton woke up at about 4 and i was up with him for about a half hr then i was out. i woke up at 6 and boy was i tired!! how can i be tired when my body is used to being up all the time! anyways after showering and getting dressed, not to mention running around because i was completely not organized, i started getting second thoughts about school. it was causing me so much stress and i haven't even got there! but then it was time to say goodbye to easton, and that was THE hardest thing to do. he was cooing and smiling when i went to give him kisses. he wanted to play but momma had to go :( as i told him bye his eyes followed me over the couch to the door outside, and i just started crying. i love my bean with all my heart! (bean is a nickname for easton)



when i got to school i ran into my bestfriends alexa and brooke! what a miracle! i dont know why i was so nervous, im a senior. maybe because it would be the first time in a LONG time everyone has seen me without a belly. and im sure there are stories going around and people had a lot of question. but overall my first day went so smoothly! i have a easy schedule, its a breeze.
when i got home i was so excited to see easton. i ran to him and gave him kisses and he just kept talking and talking &smiling! it was so great.. just reminds me more and more how grateful i am for him. i fed him and we laid down for a nap. i woke up about an hour ago, and he is sleeping still! little guy better wake up soon or i will be up all night! ;)

i really hope this year goes by fast, and i dont let myself give up! getting my diploma is my goal. i want easton to be proud of me when hes older. i can do this, i have to keep reminding myself. even though i hate leaving him, it will be worth it in the end.

thats all for now